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Not sure where this blog is gonna go, so if it's not about weight-loss, you were forwarned! :-)
So I've been thinking alot about going back to school. Crazy right? Not for a change in jobs, cause I love what I do, but in another field closely related. I think I want to be a drug/alcohol counselor on the side. I really relate to that population and find addiction to be fasinating in how it works. I myself have never been a drug addict or alcoholic, I have dated a few, but I also believe that I have an addiction to food, so on some level I can relate. I also work in a school where the majority of my student's parents are drug addicts. I feel that if I can reach out to the adults, I can somehow make life for these kids better, yes yes I know it's far reaching, but something I have really been thinking about. I also have always had an interest in human sexuality and am also considering going back to school for that as well. I think I just miss being in school. I wish I could afford to go to Med School, as that has been my dream since I was a very little girl, but I have enough student loan debt, which makes all of this unappealing as I can't fathom the idea of obtaining MORE debt. Price I paid for putting myself through school. I need to win the lottery damnit!
I am so very excited for vacation. I get to spend quality time with my dad which I love, I am going to Mystic Connecticut with my mom and sister for three days, I get to spend time with my baby cousins one I haven't seen since she was one (she's going to be 4!) and the other I have never met (he's 1). As well as getting to see my Pappy, Aunt and Uncle. I also get to see Danajo and her growing belly with my godson Chance! :-) Kate and Kylie, whom I also have never met, Katie and Makayla who I havent seen since she was very little, and hopefully some other friends and their babies! Everyone has babies! I kinda feel left out of the club, but I know when my time will come I will get to be a mommy, just gotta have patience and faith! I also get to spend lots of time with Christa, including three days in OCMD with Kristy, Lauren and Kristina too! Yay! I miss Philly very much and am looking forward to spending some time in the city! I also have a sister only day planned, now that my sister is 21 and can hang out at all the fun places! Although I will be there for 18 days, it is never enough, and the hardest part is coming back. But I have been realizing that I really wasnt happy when I lived in PA. It's not because of anything in particular, but because I am unhappy with myself. Now that I have started to make changes to make me happy, I am realizing that. It is great to be near friends and family, but I've been gone for so long and on my own, I don't know how I would adjust to that. We shall see. I think people misinterpret me a lot because I am sad sometimes, alot of that is my depression and issues I am working through, but it doesn't mean that I hate my life. My life is very simple, and I like it. I miss the social life I had in Philly, and havent met many people that are comparable to my best friends in PA (there are a few in AZ and they know who they are ;-)).
I can't believe that I am this awake right now. Usually I am ready to fall asleep when I get home from the gym, but I think the shower I took actually woke me up. Hmm. Friday I get to spend the day hanging with Lindsey and the babies watching Twilight and Saturday is Nicole's 30th bday party. I am looking forward to a fun weekend. I only have to work at Best Buy a few more days, and then I will be on my way to Pennsylvania! Yay!
I am currently reading "Love the One You are With" by Emily Griffin the same author who wrote "Something Borrowed" I also read her book "Heart of the Matter". All great books. I highly recommend them. I am excited for the plethora of good movies coming out! I have yet to see Fast Five, Hangover 2 and Pirates 4. I also wanna see Bad Teacher, Friends with Benefits, The Help and Transformers for sure. There is an awesome looking horror movie coming out that I wanna see too. I saw Bridesmaids, LOVED it! Saw X-Men, LOVED IT!, Saw Insidious, that one surprisingly was really good and scary! Also saw Water for Elephants, and although Rob did a great job, the book was much much better. I am really loving my "selfish summer" I really just like being by myself, spending time with friends and not having to worry about anything. I am working just enough to keep me sane and working out pretty much consumes the rest of it.
I am feeling so much better! I am very happy about this. :-) thanks Brooks for giving me a second chance and for being behind me. I would not be able to do this without you. You are seriously one of the best people I know. Love ya my brotha from anotha motha! ;-)
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